Scared sh*%less!

Funny, on Thursday I was happy that my Oncologist is sending me for a CT scan tomorrow, because I thought it would help me go off to the Solomon Islands knowing absolutely that I was heading off cancer free. Now though, as tomorrow looms, I'm scared sh*%less about it! Absolutely terrified that they'll find something. It's stupid..... there is no good reason to think this...... it's just the bloody mind games the mind plays with us now and then.